Welcome to My Ashram of L.O.V.E (everybody say aummmm!) YEs this is the GUru Speaking!

its funny you know when you go through life then you reach a certain stage whereby you realize, i was never a loser, i was perfect the way i was!

i'm just saying, when i was young, i always thought that i had to "fit in" into a certain group by following standards set by others.

funny it took me this long to realize the worth and value i have within me

its freedom man...

i have my own standards, i live by my own rules,

i'm sorry i'm not one to speak derogatorily about women cause i respect women, i used to be an asshole, used to make women want me by playing games but now i realized what an asshole i was and i really don't like being that way, i was always a nice guy, born this way and its easy to be like this and i'll never go back to my asshole ways because i am a nice guy, it is who i am and i have embraced it!

i feel that if you are a guy and you like soft music its not gay

i know that i'm brought up and equipped with the right morals and values taht makes me a great guy!

i hate the fact that all these years i have been living beneath my own shadow

a shadow created by the unworthy influences of my so called fellow comrades whome themselves were desperate in their own ways

desperate for attention
desperate to be loved
desperate to be favored

but not me

i always thought you had to be that way in order to be accepted

when i was young i was tall and awkward

but now

its a blessing, that i have many talents and gifts and i am happy and content with my life

cause i live it to the fullest and i really don't care about petty, unscrupulous and basically pathetic stuff

i live for knowledge, i want to fill my brain with useful, essential material that will enable me to be of value to society and possibly the whole world in entirety

my ultimate goal is to start my own enterprise , my own firm, i want to be recognized for my work as a musician

basically live a wholesome life combining the elements of art and science further uniting it with the devotion to God

for me to be this matured, i guess something must have gone right during my lifetime,
and indeed i have learned a lot and i thank whoever who is watching over me for putting the right ingredients in my life to enhance and enrich it =)...

i am one truly blessed dude and i hope in the future i can share this blessing and enhance and encourage other ppl to carry on living

and that is what i love best to see other ppl grow and to encourage them!

therefore i was always born a winner...

the rest of yall can suck it!

man i didn't get it at first but yeah... now i know

i'm actually a nice guy... i used to pretend to be a bad ass but nope that just ain't me

i blame women cause they suck... i wanted to be a bad ass so that i could get it with women cause women used to give me a hard time... and i don;t like that.... stupid games for stupid reasons... i don't mind a lil playfulness but seriously grow up lol =)

i honestly felt dumb like chasing after this person and that, my brain just feels empty cause once you get the girl and you are done with her its like "why do i feel so stupid?" "why do i feel like i have not accomplished anything?"

of course genius you spent most of your time chasing women therefore you wasted it on drinks, petrol and lots of other stupid things... dumbass

anyway yeah i'm a great guy with good values, and i don't have to do all these things just to fit in, i don't just let myself go for the sake of a good fuck.... i mean that is really low, like no value, like a friggin dog.... shit i'm human man i have status...

i don't get it... ppl would actually go for training just to pick up a girl its so stupid,

ppl would waste time moping over a girl or guy when they can be doing something better...

life is all about learning la and i have learned that i am not desperate for sex....

i'm desperate to be in the arms of the woman i love and who is in turn in love with me haha

of course i'm not going to get married until i'm 30 but still i don't mind having fun with someone special...

don't get me wrong i do enjoy the company of hot woman but that doesn't mean i have to sleep with everyone of them

i learned that i actually enjoy the company of good friends and family just for the sake of hanging out

can't believe i was that stupid and desperate when i was younger... i blame women, media and other stupid guys which i don't even feel like aligning myself with them....

its gross alll them dude ever talk about are fucking blow jobs and what ever may

its disgusting when you know they actually mean it

for me i just joke about it but i don't mean it at all, i use the fact that sex topic is soo tabboooo and craking one or two jokes for the sake of the joke is ok but i really don't mean half the shit that comes out of my mouth

you could say i'm full of shitt, i won't deny it, but life is interesting in that way when you have a lot of shit to talk about

so eff it, i don't care about score, i don't care how many women i date or nail

all i want to do is make love and be in love with whoever i'm in love in at any particular time and period... if don't have, its fine =) i'm still a happy man =) i have loads of other shit to be happy about =D

to the women who made me work so hard and in the end got nothing out of it, may you be happy(sarcasm), to the men that corrupted my mind, go fuck yourselves... i ain't no bad boy.... and girls if you can't decide if you want a nice guy or a bad boy... here is a suggestion, grow up... let us just be friends(not) =)

to my friends and family that cared... thank you soooo much =)

thank you jess, Jin, atie, jaspal, nisha, hiran, nakki, kuven, woo, boo, subashini, marrianne, my bandmates, roselyn, joe, arwin, sandiya, and ppl who have helped me throughout my hard times =)